Sweet Child O Mine
Blogging three days a weeks is like a muzzle. I have about ten stories to tell, and I’m supposed to write one post today and be silent until Monday.
But this post is supposed to be about my mother. She deserves that pride of place.
The timeline of my life is defined by my connection to my mother. Through high school, college, a failed marriage and being dumped by another man I loved, I leaned on my mother. I craved her counsel, her ear, even her warmth in my bed as I cried myself to sleep. I needed her.
Too much, I thought. I went from her roof to my ex-husband’s to a relationship where the man defined me and back to the cocoon of my mother, all in the first 31 years of my life.
At 32, I decided to figure out who I was. Because it was waaaaaay past time for me to do that.
And that didn’t go over well with Mom.
She still believes I lost my mind when I was dumped. Heartbreak-induced-insanity. I contend that I was tired of being the Andra everyone else envisioned. I needed to discover who I was for myself.
Perhaps, we’re both right.
Whichever story one believes, I sent our relationship into a tailspin that reverberated for almost a decade. All because I wanted to be friends with my mother instead of being her child, even though I couldn’t define what that meant.
I know I screwed up her various attempts.
Take the time she accosted me while I was on the toilet……….
To be continued tomorrow, because like I said, I just can’t do this three-day-week thing all the time.
Until next Thursday, this is going to be my view.
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